I hadn’t spoken to my mother in forever, but this morning, I whispered, “I miss you”. Words formed a cool mist, drifting toward the ceiling.
Rather than dissipating, vapor permeated the pores in the paint and the wood above that, and then moved up, into the sky. They floated through the atmosphere and out into star-spangled space.
When they made it to Heaven, my mother reached out, gathering my words back together. She tilted her head and poured them into her ear. As they became a part of her, she looked down, down, down past my roof, my ceiling, into my soul.
She said something back. Whatever language she speaks now, or at whatever frequency she speaks it, is incomprehensible. But I felt it. It was like an another feather joining its friends in my down comforter.
I can’t wait to see her again, but if I don’t, I may not get to. What kind of messed up multi-verse is this, anyway?
I cried in the Lyft on my way to work. In my mind, I was in my future psychiatrist’s office, giving up.
At work, I trembled before answering my first call. And my second, and my third.
I walked to a new place for lunch and failed to leave before realizing it was too trendy (expensive).
I answered fifty-eight tickets today. I composed fifty-eight insincere apologies; half of them spoken, half written.
It’s 9:30. There were a hundred things I wanted to do after work, a hundred more I should have wanted to do. I didn’t do any of them. Good night.